I'm So Far From Perfect

People say I’m inspiring and if I’m honest… it kinda makes me a bit uncomfortable. I don’t have it all together. I mean… does anyone really?!

Yes I’ve had a lot of growth in my life… like genuinely, holy crap when I look back sometimes I’m like wow okay that’s been a lot.

But at the same time… I still struggle in so many areas.

I can get socially awkward… you know when you walk into a room and have no idea what to say, who to talk to and where to stand.

I plan to go to the gym and then talk myself out of it.

I scroll on my phone for way longer than I’d like.

I bump into doorways… honestly more than I should.

I forget to put things in my calendar.

I drag paint all through my house… like it’s just part of the deal at this point.

I plan to learn to play that guitar you see in this image and have only picked it up once this year.

And then there’s the stuff underneath that… the thoughts, the self doubt that kinda creeps in sometimes, the part of me that would just rather stay comfortable and not push.

I have to learn my own lessons over and over again… like soooo many times sometimes.

And I used to think that meant I wasn’t doing it right. Like I should be further along, more sorted, more consistent… you know, all of that.

But now I kinda see it differently.

Growth isn’t clean. It’s messy. It’s repetitive. It’s going okay I’ve got this… and then finding yourself right back in the same thing again and going oh… okay we’re here again.

And still choosing to move.

Because I feel like there is so much available on the other side of stagnation and discomfort… like so much more than we realise.

Every time I lean into it… even when I don’t want to… something shifts. Something opens up.

Sometimes it works. Sometimes it doesn’t.

But I keep showing up.

And everything I’ve created, everything I’ve done, everything I’ve become… it’s not because I’m perfect.

It’s because I’m willing.

And I know so many women put limits on themselves. So I want you to know that if someone else had done something then it’s possible for you too.

And the world needs women to step up. Like now! {no pressure ha ha}